Lifes Work

For some people it’s not easy to cry To succumb to the sorrow To yeald to the pressure I use to cry without shame It was natural It helped me understand the nature of things a little better I didn’t know that talent could be lost Or what the repercussions would be But yesterday the pressure was too great And I started to cry I cried harder and longer than I’ve ever cried before I cried for loss I cried for love I cried for forgiveness and mercy And when I finally stopped crying, I knew I would cry again I cried in front of my friends I cried before strangers I cried and I cry It’s not easy to cry It’s probably never easy But I’ll do it again and again so I never forget why we cry

Have a little of your own medicine Be careful not to spill This will help the headaches, the stomach cramps, the watery eyes and that oh so deserved broken heart Here’s a nice jar with a lid You can put the pieces in And here’s a glue stick if you feel motivated to put the pieces back together This use to be my button jar but I don’t need it any longer I hope you figure this out Good luck and good-bye

Some days, live all on their own No friends that really stand behind you No on in your life that supports you for who you are Even if you change your mind again and again Not a day goes by that I wonder what kind of fuck up I’m going to turn out to be. Drunk at 3:25 on a Wednesday and I still clame I’m not an alcoholic How does that work. How does and of this bullshit lieing life work? I will die one day, and that moment will be one of the strangest moments ever The moment I’ve looked forward to, that moment I have feared in some way When that day does come, I will be happy and sad at that same moment I wish that day would come, but no sooner than the end of my life… I’ll loose friends, skin and sleep before this is over… One day…

What is it What is that crazy feeling That lacking The void, it grows each day Depression, bipolar, out of touch They all walk with me, fallow me like a shadow Numbness, not ever desperation Waiting for something to happen, wondering what it might be Wondering if I’ll take the right step, not miss it by waiting

Oh fuck he said as he cracks a beer Oh fuck it; this life is more than that It’s a song coming through the headphones It is music, which make the mouth and heart sing, out tune Fuck it I don’t care for reservations anyways I want to dance and sing and twirl around until I fall I want to forget and remember and relive every thing I seem to forget everything After a while I can’t remember what is real And where did all of these fantasies take place Am I lying here lonely Do I want to be along and will it make anything better I don’t feel lonely not lonely at all I am my best friend I’ve been there the whole time And I’ve wondered why hasn’t anyone joined me in my space But how could they Disturbing the pool Causing ripple where there were non before I’m not scared At least not right now It’s that clear reflection that let me feel how great it is Why did you go Why did you stay Why didn’t I stop caring and why didn’t you start Like never before have I been here in this time right now I think I remember being someplace close Singing down the stairs Cooking and filling the house up with myself I can feel this is true now I know I believe in me I can’t stop right now Why did you and who were you I don’t care that much to really ask