In recent light
In recent light, mid morning
crushes my will, daunts
every impulsive day dream
comes and goes as I sit
watching naked asses swaying
gently in native breezes
guilt has become a prime
motivator, guilty feelings of
laziness and the yearning
of a selfish day spent in pleasing
my inner child, stepping only
to the hallway never through the
door, never leaving my security
unless out of pure necessity
pure desperation, for release
how I love hiding in my apartment
from all that happens in a world
to full too really give a damn
my world is filled with my interests
my wants and fantasies
it is my fantasies that really
keep me up at night
waiting to break into something new